My routine doesn't change much from day to day. Sometimes it's easy to get lost in it. Motivation is sometimes hard to come by. Lately, I have been combatting this inevitable crash with my lists. It seems silly, but adding something simple to the list for the day seems to help me out of my funk and nag me to get my to do list done. It doesn't work for me if it's not an actual, written out, list. It's so odd that a few words on paper or on my phone screen can make such a difference!
I guess this is a product of my OCD. Being able to "control" the little things makes me feel more secure about the big things. If I can control my little corner of the world, then I guess my corner can't fall apart. I know that logic is flawed, but it's how someone who has OCD thinks. At least that's how it manifests in my particular case. Keeping my thinking in a linear pattern, not a circular one, is a real effort some days. The list seems to help. Going through the motions seems to help, even if I don't feel like it. Going to the gym definitely helps. I'm a lot less anxious afterward.
I've been trying to take care of myself better. If I'm taken care of, then it will be easier for me to do my job as Mommy. Going to the gym has been a key part in this. I know I've lost some inches/weight, but I'm not sure how much...the kids somehow changed the scale to kilograms and I can't figure out how to change it back. I'm also too lazy to calculate what 2.2 x whatever kilograms to get my weight.
So today, this item is checked off my list. Now on to the next item.
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