OCD, GAD, and Insomnia...Oh My!

Well, it has been a while since I have written.  I want to change that, but we'll see if I actually follow through.  I have been suffering from insomnia for about the past two years, since Sydney was born.  I've tried various things and, most recently, I have been taking Ambien to help me sleep.  While this was a wonderful relief for me in the beginning, I have decided to try to get off of it.  I don't want to be dependent on it. 

I know my anxiety disorder requires treatment and I'm fine with that, but my sleeping was fine before I had Sydney.  My anxiety disorder (GAD) and OCD may make it difficult, but I talked to my doctor and they say I can stop the pills without tapering off.  I may have insomnia for a few days, but should get back to normal within a week, hopefully sooner.  Here's to some sweet dreams...hopefully.

My Big Boy

Ethan lost his first tooth yesterday!  The tooth fairy even visited him and left him some money under his pillow. 

Sweet, Sweet Boy

Ethan brought this home from school today.  I love him so much.  We must be doing something right with that kid....

Just in case you can't read his handwriting, it says:

Dear Family,

I love you family.  They love me a lot.  My mom and dad and baby.  I love my family a lot.

Love,

Ethan



Hey! Where's my Golden Ticket?

I was looking back on past posts and realized that there is far too much space in between each one lately.  To remedy this, I've decided to do a post right now!  Yay for me!  As for us, we're living life and enjoying the journey...most of the time.  I wasn't able to attend the General Relief Society Meeting as I usually do with my mom, but I recorded it on my DVR and I was able to watch it last night.  I have to say, it was a good conference!  One thing that is awesome about DVR though is you don't have to listen to the singing...shhh don't tell. 

I really enjoyed President Uchdorf's talk about Forget Me Nots.  It's so true that we tend to put everyone and everything else first before ourselves.  I'm not saying we need to be selfish people, but we do need to take care of ourselves.  I've found myself waiting for that "golden ticket" to make my life all better at different times in my life.  It has taken a lot of growing up for me to realize that there is no "golden ticket" or if there is, it's not going to change my attitude about things.  I also liked the part where he said that we're not perfect and Heavenly Father knows that, and that he also knows that the people we think are perfect aren't perfect either.  It's so easy to get caught up in comparing your weaknesses to somebody else's strengths.  It's a hard cycle to break, but it's so important to realize that Heavenly Father loves us individually, even with our imperfections.

As far as waiting for my golden ticket goes, maybe one day something amazing like that will happen, but I know of at least three things in my life (Dan, Ethan, and Sydney) that are better than any golden ticket could be.

What Have We Been Up To?

Well, there has been an aura of controlled chaos lately around our home....I guess that's the usual aura around here.  Anyway, we've been doing pretty well.  Ethan has been in school for about a month now.  He loves being in first grade.  Sydney is as cute as ever.  She is talking up a storm.  She also has learned to fake crying.  In fact, the other night she fake cried and then when I asked what was wrong she said, "I sad."  It was cute.  I know I've got to savor these days while I can.  They're not going to last too long.

We went to the Utah State Fair earlier in the month and had a great time.  Ethan and Sydney both LOVED the big yellow slide.  We all went together as a family and then Dan took the kids so I could get some pictures the second time.  Ethan caught a fish in the catch and release fishing pond.  We got to see tons of animals.  The kids especially loved the goats because they were so friendly.  They wanted to be petted and wanted attention.  It was a really fun time.  They also had this cool Lego area where you could go build something and they had a shark and a lion made completely out of Legos.  Ethan thought it was awesome. 

All in all, it was a good time. Until next time....