And I'm doing some work, but decided to take a break from the business world for a moment. I'm just sitting here in the quiet of my office alone with my thoughts. The only sound is the tapping of the keys on the keyboard as I put my thoughts out into cyberspace.
Right now, I'm trying to learn to dance in the rain. Sometimes I think life can be quite rainy. I am a very impatient person. Right now I'm praying that my body will decide to work and do it's job. I really want to add to our little family. Sometimes I'm scared to move forward with that though. You get this little baby, your first one, and you wonder how in the world you could ever have enough love in your heart to love another one as much as you love the first. It's strange. I guess it will work out on its own when I do finally get pregnant and we have another little one in the house, but right now it's just unfathomable to me.
It has been really strange for me having Dan at home. He has been home around 7:00 p.m. or 8:00 p.m. for the most part all of last week and tonight. It's so strange to have him home to be able to eat dinner with us. He hasn't been able to do that for the better part of almost three years. I guess I'll have to start cooking more again. I have gotten away from cooking each night because what's the point when it's you and a toddler...
This Friday is Independence Day. This holiday really means a lot to me and I always look forward to it. I love the festivities, the parades, the fireworks, the food, and being with family. My family always has a HUGE get together on the 4th. We have a great time together and are all exhausted when the day is over. Another part of it, for me anyway, is remembering the wonderful history of this country and how it really is a great place to live. We are allowed to do what we want/need to do in our lives. We are allowed to choose for ourselves. We owe that right of freedom to those who have fought and who are still fighting for freedom around the world. Whenever holidays like this come to my mind, I think of my dad and my grandfather. My dad served in Vietnam. He doesn't talk about it much, and that's okay, but I know he went through a lot to help those in need over there. He gave up a lot to go and serve. He lost some friends there too. I am so grateful for my dad and the courage he had to go and serve where he was needed. My grandfather was a soldier in World War II and in the Korean war. He is a remarkable man. Service in the armed forces is such a selfless thing. You go knowing that you might not come back, but you still go because you know that's where you are needed.
Anyway, these are the things I've been thinking about tonight as I'm alone with my thoughts. I hope everyone has a safe holiday and that you remember what it's really celebrating.
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