Today.

Well, it has been a couple of days so I thought I would write a bit more. Today was pretty good. I got to go see Jenn, Emily, and Zach today for a little bit. That was really nice. It was good to catch up.

I was kind of in a crappy mood later in the afternoon. I swear, the living room can be spotless and then you put Ethan and/or Sydney in the room and it suddenly explodes. That was crazy.

Dan knew I needed to go beat some aggression out so I went to the gym. It was really nice. I would love to get in better shape and lose some weight, but the immediate benefit is that endorphin rush.

You know, I'm sure like any woman, I've always had my body image issues. I used to fret, and I still sometimes do, about it. I try not to as much anymore. It takes some effort, but I think I was spending more effort worrying. I had to make a conscious decision to just not care anymore. I'm trying to take care of myself, eating well, exercising,  etc. but I'm not punishing myself anymore if I don't get everything right. I'm living my life. Don't get me wrong, it's definitely a struggle sometimes not to fall back into old thought patterns, but I'm trying. I guess that is what's important.